I often wonder
about fate. I wonder whether fate is deterministic, and whether or not fate
has a role in our daily, or life long, decisions. When I think back to all
of the choices I made that led me to the day I met Ben, I often feel that
somehow, just somehow, fate had to be involved. From choosing to go to Penn
State, to deciding to apply and then enroll in the Schreyer Honors College,
to agreeing to live in Atherton Hall (the dorm Ben and I lived in)...if
I had made one choice differently, would Ben and I still have met? Somehow,
just somehow, I think fate would have found a way!
I met Ben on December 9, 2001. I could hardly forget the date, not only
because we made it our anniversary, but because it was the Sunday before
my first final exam week ever as a Penn State freshman! My friends and
I had been studying for exams ALL weekend long, and I (being the perfectionist
you all know me as) was incredibly stressed about my upcoming exams. In
particular, I was stressing over my Chemistry final scheduled for Friday
morning at 8 am.
After spending that entire Sunday studying, my friend Leslie and I, who
each lived in Yoe House in Atherton Hall, were thrilled to learn that
our R.A., Ang, was throwing a study break that evening in her room! Ang
promised lots of cookies and relaxation, so Leslie and I jumped at the
chance to abandon our books for a few hours. When we walked into Ang's
room, there were already a few girls there from my hall, and also some
guy friends of theirs from Cali House (also in Atherton Hall). Leslie
and I plopped down on the carpet, grabbed some cookies, and starting chatting.
We had only been in Ang's room for a little while when another guy, apparently
from Cali House, entered the room. What made this guy stand out from all
the others was the simple fact that he was carrying around a digital camera
and snapping pictures of all the friends he saw. Now, for those of you
who know Ben, you'll recognize this as typical, loveable, Ben behavior...but
I had never met a guy who walked around the dorm with his camera! Needless
to say, I was certainly intrigued, but I didn't really think about making
a first move. Ben did, however! He must have noticed that Leslie and I
were freezing (it was December, after all!), so he grabbed Ang's afghan,
brought it over to me, and introduced himself.
I figured any guy thoughtful enough to bring me an afghan was worth talking
to...I never expected that our "talking" would turn into hours
of conversation! Ben and I realized that we lived on the same floor in
Atherton Hall, had many of the same friends, and had nearly met each other
at least a dozen times before. However, besides the conversation, Ben
and I just seemed to click. That probably sounds cliché, but for
those of you who know me well, you know it often takes me a while to warm
up to people. Not so with Ben. We began talking that evening and talked
until the study break was over! I was simply amazed that I felt so comfortable
with Ben after just meeting him a few hours before. Apparently Ben felt
the same way, because after I returned to my room, I heard a soft knock
at my door. When I opened the door I saw Ben, ready to pick up our conversation
where we had left off. We sat in the hallway for probably two more hours
that evening just talking about anything, and everything, that came to
mind. I don't think I thought about my exams even one time while we were
talking!
Once exam week began on Monday, Ben and I were both incredibly busy.
We each had exams to study for and take, papers to write, and portfolios
to put together. I was still stressing over my Chemistry exam, and spent
almost every waking moment studying for the test. Ben and I somehow found
pockets of time to spend together. We went to dinner with our mutual friends,
studied in the lobby together and even found some time to talk, just the
two of us. I could tell that we were both very interested in the other...but
with our winter break coming in just a few days, and Ben and I each heading
our separate ways, I was curious to see if we would stay in touch.
Apparently Ben had similar thoughts, for he planned a surprise that definitely
showed his intention to keep in touch over the break! Ben obviously knew
I was stressed over my Chemistry exam. He helped me study (although he's
not much of a Chemistry guy himself), but most of all gave me support
and helped me calm down. On Friday morning, I woke up to an IM from Ben
wishing me luck on my exam, and I merrily headed off to my 8 am exam with
the thought of his note on my mind. I struggled my way through the exam,
and to this day, I still have never been happier to have an exam over
with! I knew I didn't ace my exam, but I was just ready to get back to
my dorm room and begin packing for break.
I opened the door to my dorm room and, out of the corner of my eye, I
noticed that my desk lamp was on. This was curious, for I had turned it
off before I left for my exam. However, when I looked over to my desk,
not only was my desk lamp turned on, but the light from the lamp was focused
on a gorgeous bouquet of flowers covering my entire desk! Tucked into
the bouquet was a small note with the sweetest message from...guess who...
Ben! Apparently he conspired with my roommate to borrow her key so he
could enter our room while I was at my exam. I was shocked, not only that
he had worked so hard to surprise me, but by what his note said (sorry,
the note's private, but it made clear that he wanted to keep in touch
over break).
I raced out of my room to find Ben, so excited, for I knew I wanted to
continue our relationship as well! I nearly ran into him in the hallway
I was in such a hurry. I gave him a big hug and a sweet kiss (our first!)
and told him that I was interested, too!
I guess, as they say, the rest is history. Ben and I continued talking
over winter break, and we even visited each other (and met the parents!)
at the very end of break. When we returned to school for the spring semester,
we picked up right where we left off. It sometimes amazes me to think
that Ben and I have dated since, essentially, the beginning of my Penn
State career. But somehow, just somehow, I don't think fate would have
had it any other way.
Hope you enjoyed our story!
Love, Alanna
